This entry has a soundtrack…=) You can listen to it while reading if you click the link at the end. =)
The Carpenters sing, “rainy days and Mondays always get me down”. I love rainy days! I’ve always felt like rain was some kind of divine sign that I’m loved. It’s been raining alot lately. Is it Father trying to remind me that He does love me? So Mondays…the past few months they’ve been killer for me. *grin* maybe this is me just growing up… I’ve always been blessed with a sunny disposition- it has always taken alot to get me down. So maybe this is just a lesson in life. Wanna hear my theory? Monday is the day after Sunday, and Sunday is the day that I usually go to church, don’t work, and have time to think….think about what it is that I want and don’t have. =) I can see so clearly what I want…and that’s a good thing! I’ve always been able to work really hard and get what I wanted: the lead in the high school musical, two college degrees, first place for Jack and Sally costumes… I’m proud of what I’ve accomplished. But this thing that I want…it’s something that I have no control over, and something that it feels like I’ll never be able to replace (thank goodness I’ve lived long enough to know that I don’t know enough to judge if that’s true). So…I’m still working really hard, but what I’m working for is not what I really want. =( I pray that all will end in smiles. I am supported and loved. James Blunt says, “my life is Brilliant, my love is pure”, and even in sadness, I feel the same way. Thank goodness it’s almost new years! I really need it this year. Dan Wilson says, “what a year for a new year” Listen —–> http://www.danwilsonmusic.com/media/mp3/Dan_Wilson-WhatAYearForANewYear.mp3
love you all!
xoxoxo
laura. =)

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