I ran in the dark tonight, and had to stop a mile and a half in because my knee was acting up (gr!)…but the rural streets were so dark, and the night sky so big that it was a treat to walk for a while. I was able to just listen. Running is a way for me to spend my emotions. I usually come away from a run feeling alive, and both defeated and triumphant. I’m closer to tears after I’ve run. Tonight this emotive state allowed me to listen to the sweetness of the night and remember how many wonderful similiar nights I had spent under this exact same big sky. Why would I ever want to leave? I love Spokane. It’s magical to me. It’s always home. I question my reasons for wanting to move to Cali…and find that none of them are very good. It doesn’t make sense, and yet I feel this pull to be there. For what purpose? I’m not sure, but it completes something. *giggles* something like my foolishness maybe. =)
In any case, I’m feeling anxious about buying a ticket to Cali tonight for a job fair, I’m feeling like I’m being an idiot for trying so hard to do something that really isn’t the best idea. But alas, I’m off to do so-
May I suggest running in the dark? It’s very different from any other type of running and is surprisingly relaxing-
loves.
elle

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