I work too much. I force a smile. I don’t realize until the warm evening sunset hits me that I’ve been coasting all day and out of 362 smiles, only 5 were genuine. This bothers me quite a bit. I don’t want to live a common life. I don’t want this daily routine to dull me into submitting to a life lived to find rest after a taxing day at a job that I return to only for money.
Sadly, my current financial position requires that I do little more than simply work for money- I am paying the price in my own days for the things I bought and experienced a few years ago. I’m frustrated and tired. I have no one to blame but myself, and nothing to do to get out of this drudgery except work more. =)
The bright side? As a subsitute teacher, I get to do something new everyday, and I have lots of time to read, plan, and create little things, like the above that I made at Sacajawea Middle School today. Also, at Red Robin, I work with the best crew ever who have been so sweet these past few months putting up with my fake smiles and constant sighs of “holy moly” and “can I go home now?” Thank goodness I picked this corner to paint myself into…it’s at least comfortable. =)
elle. =)

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