It’s amazing that it takes us so long to know ourselves. It’s like we need years to see the patterns within ourselves…like the rings of a tree when it’s cut.
It took me 19 years to realize that I like art. I walked into my college administration office my junior year of college and changed my major to studio art without ever having taken an art class, because I was finally able to connect the wall drawings from my crib of my two year old self, to the pink lace fashion designs of my thirteen year old self, to the painted toaster in my dorm room. I was an artist.

I wonder what connections and realizations my sixty year old self will understand that I am too close to see now.

I was thinking about this tonight because I chose three photos to post on my flickr account out of the hundered that I took today. When I had them all side by side I noticed how similiar they were. I didn’t choose them to match. I looked at the whole bunch and chose them each because I found something beautiful in each. When I did get them all up, I noticed how striking they are as a set, and also that they say something about me that I hadn’t yet realized. I’m not sure that I can put what that something is into words yet…maybe I need to form a couple more rings inside until I can voice it.

I hope that you’re realizing.
You’re wonderful people.
Keep up the good life.

xoxox
elle

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