I am very introspective. The dialogue that I have with myself sometimes overshadows my connections with people that are present. I’ve had my share of inner-esque struggles, passions, serious worries, heartaches and the like. I’ve built a heart through adversity and created my little paradigm with intensity. I enjoy my own company and like the person that I’ve become.
Lately though, I feel sort of watered down. Sort of flooded with normality and sense and carefully-planned-investing. The double-the-water-half-the-sugar kool aid version of me. I know this because my hair is still brown, despite the fact that jobless me could now accomodate color (like the blue that I’ve envied since high school). I know this because although I complain about sleeping in till 11 everyday (a la “man! I hardly got anything done today because I slept through my alarm”), I make no plans to get up sooner. I know this because even though my favorite thing to do is make and be involved in the community, I find myself hour after hour sitting at this computer, watching other people make, and observing communities without participating. So watery.
I need a challenge. I need to infuse my little safe (and so comfy and happy!) life with something that will really make me stretch. You know, stand up and rock the boat a little. =)
hugs my loves! I miss hugging so many of you!!!
xoxo
elle.
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Cheers Elle!!
I just wanted to let you know that i love your web site. I can use your creativity and after reading your latest entry it sounds like you have a little time. i’m going to be taking a class at the local jc to learn how to set up a web page to sell my art. class starts on 4-10. i know of several other artist who want to do the same. what do you think? do you want to be a part of this? I hope so!! i think that this could be a way for you to earn a little money to pay for your habits.
sounds like a wonderful venture! I’d love to help out. =)