I feel ready-made. I feel wrapped in plastic and ready for shipment. I come pre-programmed with a heart full of love for one specific man. I hope that he notices me when I reach the shelves- and I hope that he picks me out of all of the rest. =) goodnight folks. =) elleayeyouareaye.

It’s incredible the love I can hold in this little heart. Amazing that the weight of it doesn’t pull me to the earth, but rather, makes me feel light, makes me giggle to myself in mirrors, and laugh out loud at licorice. The love I carry has it’s own baggage, and I imagine, if you [...]

I feel like I’ve waking up from a long sleep. I find myself carefully balancing all of the ingredients of my life to maintain the mixture that brought about this awareness. I’m not sure if the portions are right however, and I’m not sure if it needs to be kneaded, or proofed, or tenderized. I [...]

The adventures in my near future are a mystery to me. Something is making it’s way towards me. It’s just around the next corner, and I can’t help but beam. *squeeze!* elle

I am a freak about record-keeping. I’ve been keeping paper journals daily since I was about 13. I have tons of them. I’m afraid of losing memories, I’m afraid that by not documenting in some way, it will be forgotten. I also take photos and video like crazy. I wanted to do something special for [...]

It’s been a long time since I’ve noticed the sky. It happened twice today…once while I was driving away from Red Robin and the sky was blue and pink at the same time, and a second time while I was getting into my car for a midnight run to Wal*Mart. You see, Tim Burton’s Corpse [...]

I’ve been afraid to actually read my credit card statements. I am completely in bondage, a bondage that I’ve created for myself. Tonight, I had Scott help me add up simply the INTEREST on all of my credit card debts. I about peed my pants at the total. I pay $21 a day in credit [...]

In celebration that I finished the the first Harry Potter book last week, I am settling down tonight to watch the movie. If that wasn’t enough to make me a geek, I’ve been looking forward to it all week, and I made myself pizza and a milkshake. I’m going to cuddle with myself on the [...]

I’m already reminded several times a day that I’m single, and that the object of my affection is both far away and out of reach. I’ve tried avoiding things that remind me of him, but I find that I can’t avoid the way that I laugh, the table that needs $7.37 in change, or the [...]

do you know the feeling? You’re traveling along just fine…enjoying yourself…having a snack…and then the lights flicker, the cabin pressure drops, and the world is not what it once was. It’s a deep plunge. For a train, an inch makes all the difference between Chicago and Austin. It doesn’t take much to derail me. The [...]