How grateful I am for both emptiness and fullness, day and night. Salty, sweet, tangy and sour. Mornings of rest and stretching and warmth, and mornings of brash alarms and blurry-eyed breakfast in the car. How grateful I am for distance and yearning and hug-filled reunions at holidays. Tedious shopping lines [...]

walks
laughing
riding a bike
kissing
grocery shopping
Brian
stretching after a run
baking cookies
the beach
hershey’s milk chocolate with almonds
chasing Kaitlyn
taking photographs
pineapple
weddings
painting

Today I felt as if my skin was going to fail me. I felt as if everything inside of me was going to jump in a thousand different directions and the slight elastic of my skin would not be able to withstand the jubilee. This, obviously, did not happen, but I spent the [...]

I know when flowers are ready to be thrown away. I know when bread should not be eaten because it has gone bad. I know when it’s time to stop wearing my bathing suit and switch to sweaters. I do not, however, know when to place endings in my life. It [...]

How small I feel being here, for the first night. in my own little one-bedroom-layers-of-white-paint-echoes-of-cat-apartment in San Diego. After being in this space for about 10 minutes I scrunched up my face and asked aloud, “what am I doing here?”. While I am grateful to finally have a place to store my [...]

I have the occassion every few days to drive by Baskin Robbins. I get nervous as it approaches on the right side of my car, and I do my best to distract myself from it’s presence. I listen to the song on the radio, I think about the tasks that need to be [...]

sometimes really loving someone is getting out of the way.
sometimes really loving someone is holding them in an open hand.
but stay close to the path, and don’t let your open hand turn into a fist.
being loved is becoming a detour. being loved is returning.

I like filling out forms. This week I’ve filled out dozens of applications to school districts and while I like answering questions like, “if there were no restrictions placed on you, what would you do with your life?” and “Do you think that a teacher can be too empathetic? Explain”, I do [...]

Look! I found the most amazing thing at St Vincent de Paul’s the other day. It’s a Seaman’s manual. I bet that a current version of this is still in use in the Navy, but no doubt it has ben modified and reformed. This version contains references to getting a “square [...]